the ridge between love & despair is very thin. dangerously thin. fragile even. this is why this month's music mix was inspired by exactly this condition and this state of mind. you feel like the greatest person ever living on earth in one moment, thinking you finally found one of the many things you were searching for in life and then in the next second a conversation, a frustrating thought can reverse your whole existence into a different direction of emotion, a sickness of the heart, where moments before you were flying high on dopamine & endorphines. not being able to properly express yourself and a fear of rejection, grinding your unrealistic desires & feelings down to a mere minimum, not deserving any of these emotions and there, you fell down the ridge again.

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