ilyjai

I come on here and I listen to your playlist and I fall in love with you all over again. Things have changed so much and you think my love for you has too. It hasn't. When I listen to your playlist I realize it hasn't. Sunshy. Ladypug. God damn, all the memories. I wish I could tell you. I hope you're happy. I hope I made you happy. I was in love and it was better than my first. You fixed me. I owe you everything. I'll always have respect for you and never talk down on you to another living soul. I'll always be happy when you're happy and sad when you're sad. You've moved on and I hope it's so much better. I hope you never forget that we know each other the way no one else will. When cigarette daydreams come on I think of you so much and have so much flashbacks. I never showed you perfect but I swear I showed you love I should've more but I promise I tried. The best I could. Look at the screenshots and never delete them. In those exact moments I was filled with irreplaceable love for you. I'll always love you. You're the type of female to make a man question if their first love was even their first love. You're the type of female to make a man cry because he knows what a good woman he lost. You're the type of woman God puts in a man's life (or anyone for that matter) to show him what loss is for the rest of his life. (I know you don't believe in him, really. or didn't when I knew you.) You'll always have my respect and love. You'll always have a huge chunk of my heart. No one will ever replace you or make me stop missing you or thinking about you. No one. I will love again but not the way I loved you. The love we had never happens twice. Im so sorry for everything. That's not enough, I know. I still remember how you made me feel. This brings everything back but never you. I'm so tired of missing you. It's my fault. The love of my life. 1/1/14. Best 2 years of my life even though it got shitty. You'll always be my rock and best friend. My baby. "When Im dreaming well I know I'm gonna dream of the time I had with you."