This is me.

You can try to define it. You can label and judge it. You can even try to control it. You wouldn’t be the first at any of it. It’s all been attempted, and I’ve surpassed all of it. When it comes down to it, I am exactly what I let myself be. I’m not always proud of it, not always happy with my final result, but I can say with complete confidence that it’s not your call.

It’s a bittersweet feeling, this power over my being. There are ALWAYS consquences. Someone always has to take the fall for the person that I am. Selfish as it seems, I try to keep that burden on anyone but myself at all times. Honestly, I’ve got enough shit to deal with. So what if you don’t agree with my lifestyle. What I do and why I do it are two concepts that are rarely perceived in context. And if the reasoning is corrupt, then so is the action. Then so is the judgment.

I’m on my own now. I can make it or break it and only look back at the now with satisfaction or regret and have no one but myself to blame for it either way.

I’m content with that responsibility.

When you walk a straight line for so long, you’re bound to look up from it and wonder “what happens when I veer off course?”

I can assure you, it’s a lot less scary and a lot more amusing. It’s funny because most of what you find follows that same path you were traveling to begin with.

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