You ruined me.
There is no amount of showers that will wash away what you did. I feel you in my sleep, reminding me of all the horrors you put me through. Your hands on my throat, your voice in my ear..
But I am not yours anymore.
And I will never be yours again.
I am more than what you did to me.
I am so much more than a victim.
// major trigger warning for csa and other forms of mistreatment