Notes
Sometimes I forget that ED isn't my friend. Sometimes I feel triggered and all I want is to cry and regress, but this fight is never ending and I'm not a good loser. Somehow we'll get through this, somehow we'll feel beautiful, so for now let me wallow, but tomorrow wake me up and make me fight.
Hold on. Pain Ends.
10 comments on i am stronger than my eating disorder, but for today, let me lay down and weep (View all)
timaeusGay April 02, 2018
@twinkeypop21 My fight is still going on strong- I’m two weeks in recovery and still going. To me personally, it helps me cope with the negative emotions. I find that after I listen to it, I feel ‘new’ and more motivated to do some good about my ed rather than fuel it.
⃠timaeusGay October 23, 2017
I think I'm on the verge of crying, this is a beautiful mix and I hope you'll keep fighting. I myself am struggling with Ana and recently she's been getting louder and it feels like I'm losing my grip on fighting her- but in the back of my mind I know I need to keep on going despite the promises Ana says she holds for me; no matter how nice it sounds. Thank you, this is exactly the mix I've been looking for. <3
⃠twinkeypop21 March 27, 2018
@Officially_Obsessed this is very late, but as I was going through this mix again, I really do hope your fight is still strong. I am not sure if I should keep this playlist up as I am unsure if it does good or if it is just a tool to keep us sad. I would love some advice. Do you think this mix helps you in your fight, or does it make it worse?
⃠Oscillations September 29, 2014
Please don't think you're alone. Reach out for all the help you need and more. I hope you're well now.
&remember, recovery doesn't mean getting fatter, it means getting stronger.
⃠oldandnewpride June 14, 2014
I landed myself back in hospital yesterday.
⃠twinkeypop21 June 14, 2014
I'm sorry. I know sometimes that's never enough to hear, and it never feels like enough to say, but in this situation I am so truly sorry. You are a gorgeous girl and to see Ana take control is heart wrenching.
God, I wish I knew how to help, but I'm just human. You aren't alone. You never will be, I pray you find your way in this world. Someday I know you will be so incredibly happy. We all have days of relapse, where Ana is so incredibly loud, but she doesn't know the world. She doesn't know the beauty of this life. Someday it will be better, keep your head up, think positively. You are beautiful and your soul is strong.
I'm here if you ever need to talk to someone.
⃠twinkeypop21 June 14, 2014
If you have time, take a look at my newest mix. I made it for those days you need the inspiration to feel strong. I hope I can somehow help,
⃠oldandnewpride June 10, 2014
I'm slowly recovering from Ana and whenever I feel myself relapse this is exactly what I need.
⃠Thank you so much.
twinkeypop21 June 13, 2014
Stay strong and hold on, life is so wonderful. It really is. Ed or Ana, whatever you call this devil cannot control you. I'm proud of you for fighting.
⃠I don't know why your comment effected me so much today, but my heart goes out to you. Keep living as a fighter. As hard as that is, quitting is never an option.
21flavours June 02, 2014
i love this, I'm dealing with an ED also, be strong and it'll be okay soon
⃠twinkeypop21 June 02, 2014
Thanks! Keep fighting!
⃠so.a June 02, 2014
I'm dealing with an ED too... Just be strong, everything will be ok
⃠twinkeypop21 June 06, 2014
Stay strong!
⃠JohnFrusciante June 01, 2014
be stong!
⃠twinkeypop21 June 06, 2014
I'm doing my best!
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