"I watched it all happen quite calmly--without fear, without pity, without any kind of stunned curiosity--so that the impression of the event is burned indelibly upon my optic nerves, but oddly absent from my heart. It was many hours before I was cognizant of what we'd done, days (months? years?) before I began to comprehend the magnitude of it. Never, never once in any immediate sense, did it occur to me that any of this was anything but a game.
I suppose at one time in my life I might have had any number of stories, but now there is no other. This is the only story I will ever be able to tell."

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