the pills used to be the final crutch for when surviving in this body was impossible after all else. but the crutch is becoming, or perhaps already is, a limb instead. i am forgetting how to stand on my own and what is worth standing for. i am mostly incapable of functioning without the pills now, or at least the promise of them. fingers tapping nervously on grocery cart handles, nails picking at nails. i can't stop...

A personal mix about becoming addicted after using pills to try to escape gender dysphoria.

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