sometimes, mental illness will raise an insurmountable barrier that can only be destroyed from the outside. in the mean time, you have to hold out inside. these songs carried me through some of the worst weeks of my life, before help arrived. they're not clean or easy. but neither is depression. they're terrifying, or angry, or barely present in this world. these are not songs that will reassure you, but hopefully, they can understand you for a while. i wouldn't have made it without them.

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